For the last time in my undergraduate career, I am on break at home in Washington. Spring Break for WT officially arrives tomorrow but due to my light class schedule I hopped on a plane on Tuesday to hang out here for two weeks. I expected to take the time off and not really learn anything... once again, I was proven wrong. In fact, I even got a glimpse at life after graduation.
The first day and a half I was here, there was nearly no talk on facebook about school. But today, Facebook has blown up with "we are doing this or that at school/in the prairie lab". Since I am almost always in the Prairie lab or somewhere at school, this is extremely weird for me to see. In addition, I had a few friends tweet and facebook me about how weird it was not to have me in Canyon.
It hit me today after getting a few of these messages and seeing the statuses that for the rest of my life (or until my friends graduate), this is how life will be after May. I will see these updates, maybe get a few tweets or facebook messages about how I'm missed, etc. No longer is Spring Break just a break. Instead, it is a look into what lies ahead after May. And man, is it scary. The one thing I have going for me on *this* change is that I'm at home so it's not a total change for me but what happens when I move to Kentucky and I'm mostly alone and have to establish a new group of friends? I don't really want to think about that right now.
For now, I'm going to enjoy the next two months (64 days) and not worry about the next step in my life when it comes to the social aspect. I've passed my senior capstone class with my interview last monday so while I still have eight weeks of classes, a research project to start, and my Fulbright application I am going to somewhat relax for the next eight weeks and soak it all in.
This break may be full of lessons but it's definitely not going to give me a panic attack like it would have in January. It's time to fully embrace what is coming, not hope that this part of my life never ends.
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