I went to our cabin (and a NASCAR race) this weekend with the goal of shutting off my brain to all real life related thoughts.
I had literally spent all week trying to get everything done so on friday, I could load up and head to the family and friends retreat we had planned (okay, my mom and stepdad, some friends from Seattle, and two cousins from seattle as well) with no problems. Well... me being me, I didn't get everything done during the week (I definitely tried my hardest though!) so I worked on school stuff until 2pm. You'd think I'd head straight out of town, right? Yea, I'm not that smart.
First I had to go to dad's to clean out my car, followed by checking the oil and such, add a call to my dad after checking oil to ask if he had any oil then waiting for him since he was picking me up some (we did find out that he had oil after he bought some), the wait was highlighted by washing my car (poor Betty was extremely dirty, I think she planned the oil thing so she'd get washed), then I had to do another errand after leaving my dad's... the final result, leaving town around 5 and making it to the trailer by about 6.
The drive up to the trailer was the start of the end... if you know me when I'm working on my stories, I am constantly thinking about them. What can I change? Why is this character so blah? Can I kill this character off? All go through my mind ALL THE TIME. But this year we're also joined by the grad school questions. See, I thought graduating with my bachelors would be easy. Graduate, pick a grad school, apply, the end. Kids, that's not how it works.
I have three places that I want to go to school, England (I'm not picky, put me on that island or on the Irish island and I'm happy), British Columbia, and Toronto. Yes, I realize how different these places are. The end result is that my brain can't decide. I'm a pro/con list kind of girl, it's hard when all the areas and schools have the same amount of pros or cons. So, going back on my "everything happens for a reason" theory that I love to live by (yes, I am one of THOSE people that tries to think that even when bad things happen) I think I've convinced my brain to just settle down, apply to all four schools I'm looking at (2 in England, 2 in Canada, hopefully no others pop up), and hope that they decide for me. If not, it can start worrying again. Don't tell it, but I kind of want to do the worrying thing since that means I got into more than one.
Another thought this weekend consisted of school since I have three tests this week with two finals and a regular class test. Thanks for that, teachers. I also have my three assigned articles for the week and my on call day. I'm shooting to get this all done by Thursday afternoon, wish me luck.
And finally, the last thought was about my story that I've been working on since I was born (okay, just last year but it feels like 22 years). I'm pushing for an edit done date of August 14th and my brain is spazzing out. I love to write and re-reading my "babies" after they are written is fun but editing is kind of like voluntarily sticking yourself in the eye with a needle at times. However, I LOVE this story and really want it to succeed (and possibly even open it up for a series down the road) so I'm pushing on. Because of this, my brain did not want to forget about it for a weekend.
So overall, while this blog post wasn't supposed to happen because my brain was supposed to be down for maintenance for the weekend, instead, y'all get this nice mumbo jumbo that my brain decided to throw together for your entertainment and to release its frustrations at the internal argument about vacation. We'll be trying another one soon, maybe my brain will finally get the memo.
Until next time,
Mel
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